Power

It is amazing to me the power we let others have over our lives. We let others decide if we have done a good job, have the correct clothes on, wore our hair just the right way and such.
I have seen this power play out in my classroom. There are girls and boys in the room that have power over the other children on a daily basis. I have never understood this. I have never felt like I have the power to influence others. I have experienced the power others have over me. Do I keep a clean house like her? Do I have clothes like her? Do I have the right toys for my children?
I have finally reached an age where I do not care. I think that is what being forty five does to you. You are now in control of your own power. I do not care if I fit in, I do not care if I am liked. For I know that I am who I am and I like that person. I love my family, I love my kids in my classroom and I am who I am take me or leave me. I have the power. I am in control of who I let into my life and if I will let them give me a power surge or zap all my power. I wish I had learned this at an earlier age, but maybe I needed all the power outages to get me to where I am today. I do know that I love to helpful, I love to make small talk with complete strangers. Just ask my family and how I can talk to absolutely anyone. Some days I feel that if I open up to a stranger, who knows that may be the only person that spoke to them all day. I have learned to be careful of who I am friends with, some are just power zappers. I hope that these people find other friends that they are able to connect with, but I can't let that into my life. I need only positive power generators as my friends. It is okay to say you know I am busy, I can't take this friendship on right now. When we do this our relationships are deeper and better. So to my five close friends that read this blog. You matter to me. I do not care if I ever have 500 readers. I love that I have five of you. Power to you.....